I wrote this a while ago, moved by the feeling of losing someone. It is one of the few things I feel I do not have to revise a couple of months later, exactly 4 months to be precise…it don’t matter where I am, it stays the same. Tonight it is true just as it will be tomorrow though the motivation changes. Thank you for inspiring me, you know who you are.
i am the last person you’d expect this from. i’m the crazy tattooed chick. time to drop your prejudice. for good. somewhere someone in this world is breathing their last breath as you are reading this. young, old, sick or healthy.
i am incapable of grasping how somebody i knew, somebody who was very much alive and breathing the last time i saw them, can just stop existing. hadn’t it been on the news i never would have known.
i have been confronted with death ever since my mother passed and everyday i am terrified of losing someone or seeing someone i like losing a loved one. time runs and we are too small to understand. we are tiny and unimportant, yet if you pay attention every moment of every day your mood changes because of the tiniest encounters…a text, a song, a call, a smile, a piece of chocolate, a moment of silence, a tear in someone else’s eye. they are all important to you in this life today and maybe for years to come. at this point, once more i realize the only way for me to live life without being overwhelmed by the pain and joy it brings, is to have faith.
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The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name’ sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil:
For thou art with me; Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;
Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.
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no matter if i know you well, you are my closest friend or someone i just met: you are in my heart and you have changed my life-
if only the slightest bit, for a minute, a look on your face, a thought or even a fight that i’ve grown from.
God bless you.
