The Little Things

After my rant about all things that suck big time, it’s time to crawl out of my dark hidey-hole!

So here’s my list of super-awesome stuff that makes my life wonderful .

• My boyfriend. The. BEST. Thing. That. Ever. Happened. To me. One reason to believe in God: the man loves me even though he knows me.
• My cat: the cutest little Purrmachine, footwarmer, mind-soother, alarmclock, entertainer
• My friends:  my 24/7 support-system, witty, beautiful, interesting, weird people. You are the sun and the moon and the stars, for real.
• My dad. Who is like me, in an older, more irritating and really wise version.
• being smoke-free for 363 days today!!!
• Chocolate.
• Studying something that I love. Which leads me right to the next point:
• BOOKS
• more BOOKS
• a full closet with chic and, more importantly right now, warm clothes
• a beautiful apartment in a great city
• snowflakes!
• more snowflakes.
• drinking tea with book and cat on the couch
• singing along to Ella in the car
• hot soup
• my cozy and absolutely not p.c. scarf
• coffee in the morning
• not having TV
• having a TV to watch DVDs
• a life full of options ahead of me
• cooking and making cupcakes for my friends
• my really sweet new neighbours
• hugs
• kisses
• my favorite little pillow
• and did I mention books?

What makes your life good?

home.

I am lounging on my little island, the world famous green couch, between a hundred pillows waiting for me to rest my head on them.

My thoughts circle around the feeling I’ve  been allowed to have these past couple of days: being exactly where I should be, on this little island, surrounded by people I love.

It was warm and cozy and an overall feeling of trust and comfort and accepting each other with all our flaws and nerves and whatnot…exactly the way home should feel.

I don’t have all that much family or at least not family ties and that’s why it means so much to me -

I am blessed to have you, darlings, and all the happier now that you made friends with my other friends.

Thank you for a fantastic weekend full of tea and food and fun!

what’s in my heart today

I wrote this a while ago, moved by the feeling of losing someone. It is one of the few things I feel I do not have to revise a couple of months later, exactly 4 months to be precise…it don’t matter where I am, it stays the same. Tonight it is true just as it will be tomorrow though the motivation changes. Thank you for inspiring me, you know who you are. 

 

i am the last person you’d expect this from. i’m the crazy tattooed chick. time to drop your prejudice. for good.                 somewhere someone in this world is breathing their last breath as you are reading this. young, old, sick or healthy.

i am incapable of grasping how somebody i knew, somebody who was very much alive and breathing the last time i saw them, can just stop existing. hadn’t it been on the news i never would have known.                                                                                            

i have been confronted with death ever since my mother passed and everyday i am terrified of losing someone or seeing someone i like losing a loved one. time runs and we are too small to understand. we are tiny and unimportant, yet if you pay attention every moment of every day your mood changes because of the tiniest encounters…a text, a song, a call, a smile, a piece of chocolate, a moment of silence, a tear in someone else’s eye. they are all important to you in this life today and maybe for years to come. at this point, once more i realize the only way for me to live life without being overwhelmed by the pain and joy it brings, is to have faith.

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The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name’ sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil:

For thou art with me; Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies;

Thou annointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,

and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.

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no matter if i know you well, you are my closest friend or someone i just met: you are in my heart and you have changed my life-

if only the slightest bit, for a minute, a look on your face, a thought or even a fight that i’ve grown from.

God bless you.